FOOL I'M PREGNANT! I was confused. Maybe we did have a future. Maybe we didn't. I can barely take care of myself. I can't take care of another human being. I don't even like small children. Women have the right to choose. ONE decision can effect THREE lives. I never thought I would feel this way. I don't feel any connection. I don't want this baby. I'm going to have an abortion. A LIFE for a LIFE. MINE first!
We'd been messing around for years. I never thought we would be TOGETHER. He wasn't the marrying type. That night, we didn't have a condom. We did it any way. When it was time for him to pull out, he didn't. I reminded him that I WASN'T on the pill. He said "chill out, we're good". A month or so later, I was pregnant. I was actually seeing someone ELSE. This was awkward. I was embarrassed to tell anyone. I had just started a new job. Moved into a new apartment. What would people think? "Another single black woman with a BABY". I didn't want to be considered a statistic. I decided I wasn't going to have IT. I made an appointment at the clinic. I waited for his sorry ass to pick me up. He said he over slept. I made ANOTHER appointment. My girl was going to take me. They completed my exam and told me that I was further along. I didn't have enough money. I couldn't believe this sh**t. I made a third appointment. The night before, I had a dream. A baby girl was sleeping on my lap. I didn't want my life to change. I didn't know anything about children. WE would never be a couple. This was for the best. Years later, I think about that time. I know I made the right the decision. He's 17 now.
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Good story but sleeping with more than man at time makes a female a WHORE. It's not fair but this how guys view this. She made the choice to have sex with a guy who wasn't of character so she had to live with that decision, which she did and her son grown now. We all have to live and learn. But from reading it, he didn't pull out bc he didn't respect her or himself.
ReplyDeleteSo now we know what happened to Billie Jean: She raised her child. She did not degrade herself with DNA tests on "Maury Povich." Her son is becoming a man and Billie Jean is teaching him to respect himself and women because in nature, "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." You go girl!
ReplyDeleteJust amazing how it's okay for the brotha to drop the seed and move on but when the woman does it she's a whore! I wonder if men could get pregnant if they would be so nonchalant about the responsibility of pregnancy and protection.
ReplyDeleteGlad she had the courage to become a mother and took pride in teaching her almost grown son what NOT TO DO!
This story speaks volumes on many levels. I always say that part of being an adult is embracing accountability. I also believe that the best part of adulthood is having the ruling hand over your own life. She relinquished that hand when she gave him the option of sex even though she was not taking birth control. Expecting a man to pull out, is like expecting a rollercoaster ride to end before the big drop. If she did not want children, then she should not have put herself in the position period. She gambled. Her son is almost grown and it is great that she opted to raise her child; but be clear both parties here were in the wrong. They were both irresponsible and selfish. Although she made the best of a situation that was unfavorable, the lingering effects of this decision can be felt 4ever. Lesson learned, male or female, don't ever relinquish the dictatorship over your own life!
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