BUT IT HURTS SOOOOOOO..

GOOD. The first time it shocks you. Then he makes the promise. Then it happens again. You want to believe him. He's always sorry afterwards. "I don't know why I make him so angry"? His RAGE frightens you. But his intensity turns you on. No one would understand. I know this is wrong. I'm ashamed that I LOVE him but more ashamed that I LOVE the PAIN.

My father used to hit my mother. I never knew why she stayed.  I swore I would never be like her. I had found the ideal man. He was so kind. We were the picture perfect couple. My friends envied how he treated me. We did everything. Traveling, shopping, dining, the sky was the limit. When we made love, he was so aggressive. I loved it. Our relationship was passionate. The moment I would  hit the door, we were at it. I thought he was happy. After I got a new job, things started to change.  I was promoted to manager and had to work longer hours. I never knew how insecure he was. He accused me of cheating. I wasn't. One day when were arguing, he slapped me. I couldn't believe he hit me. He immediately apologized. I was dazed. When he grabbed my hair, I thought he was going to hit me again. He didn't.  He kissed me and threw me on the bed. I wanted him to stop but became aroused. The sex was so intense. I was ashamed that I came. It started to become a cycle. We would fight then F**K! It was getting out of control. I had to end it. I told him he needed help. He agreed. We broke up the following week. I wish things could have been different. I just wanted him to stop beating ME up, not the P**SY. .........Still Single