DISEASE! Betrayal has many different stages. She had to know. I've been with a FEW women. I'm not a saint. I USUALLY where condoms. I wouldn't say I'm reckless. This was a professional church going woman. Who would ever thought SHE had an STD? I guess just like a bullet, HERPES has no name either!
We attended the same church. She spearheaded the outreach ministry. A few casual conversations, I asked her out. I had never dated anyone in my church. I decided to take it slow. We dated for a few weeks before any physical contact. We both believed that sex before marriage was wrong. When we saw each other in church, we barely spoke. I wasn't comfortable letting people know. We tried to resist the temptation. One night, we gave in. She was wild in bed. I guess the stereotype about church girls was true. We continued seeing each other for some months. I was at her house using the bathroom. I noticed a small bump. The next few days I noticed more. At first, I figured it was the detergent. It was new. Then I became concerned. I went to the doctor. They ran some tests. I could not believe what they told me. I had HERPES. I was in shock. I got burned as a teenager. Nothing serious. I guess I thought it couldn't never happen.The doctor prescribed some medicine. He told me that it was not a cure. He said that the breakouts could be minimized but I would ALWAYS have the disease. I would have to tell EVERY woman I slept with. I had only been with her a few times. I was ENRAGED. It is a feeling that you never want to have. I confronted her. She acted like she had know idea. She tried to flip the script. "Maybe I should get checked out too"? I wanted to grab her by the neck. There was nothing I could do. I couldn't change what had happened. I live with THIS everyday. I never spoke to her again. I no longer attend that church. I haven't been in a serious relationship in years. I struggle telling women. I know everybody has some baggage. Its just hard carrying mine. .....Still Single
Stay away from those Church going Whore Dirt Bags , the Nasty skank gave him the Mini Monster !!
ReplyDeleteDon't blame the church girls. Blame your selfish lack of self control! We have to get back to basics. If they both were operating in the principles they both were being taught this wouldn't be an issue. So back up and check yourself.
ReplyDelete"Are we really happy here
ReplyDeleteWith this lonely game we play
Looking for words to say
Searching but not finding
Understanding anywhere
We're lost in a masquerade."
[Masquerade: Leon Russell]
SINGLE: There were TWO people in DENIAL. You chose not to use protection and denied that you could contract an STD again. You both denied your relationship in public. She's denying that you may have contracted herpes from her. Denial will only spread it further. Now that the masquerade is over, learn to cope with your condition. Don't deny yourself the chance to lead a happy and productive life.
I have it too, but I raped.
ReplyDeleteIt is much worse, when you are raped and you end up like this. You are the victim again.
It will get better and there are some people out there that will love you, in spite of your STD.
Honesty, is always the key in every relationship.
@anonymous thanks for that comment, the author surely appreciated it! this is part of the reason why i do this blog..because there is POWER in sharing what LOVE has done and can do to you....i believe in the PROMISE of learning from others and at the end of the day i do believe we ALL deserve to be loved...again thank you..
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