FRIENDS! I knew it from the start. When dating, you have choices. He was a nice guy. I just didn't like him LIKE THAT. I didn't mislead him. We had some things in common. I wasn't attracted to him. I should have left well enough alone. We should have remained FRIENDS. I just had to know if there was more. You never want to say "what if...?" Even though you already know WHY NOT.
We met at a Starbucks. I had seen him there before. He was nice looking. It wasn't butterflies. I was open to meeting new people. We started hanging out. I wasn't attracted to him. I could tell he was in to me. Our dates were always neutral. Nothing romantic. Didn't want to give him the wrong signals. I was seeing a couple of other people. They were just distractions. He wanted us to be more. We had a really good rapport. I could always count on him. I decided why not. We became a couple. It was the first time I decided to date with my head. It wasn't that bad. We enjoyed the same; restaurants, movies and clubs. We did everything together. All of my friends loved him. My mom kept asking for a wedding date. I liked him. I thought I was happy. Something was still missing. Our sex life was TERRIBLE. I tried everything. I would always want it to be over. My eyes would be open while he was putting in work. He noticed. But never said anything. I began to resent that he had what he wanted. I didn't. I slowed things down. He wasn't the man for me. I can honestly say I tried. Relationships are work. I'm READY for the job. My heart just has to show up too. Still Single
Its Shameful , sounds like she doesn't know herself very well at all , i hope the Brotha finds a Sista who wants to be in a Relationship because clearly she doesn't
ReplyDelete"Make peace with yourself before you can love another
ReplyDeleteUnderstand who and what you are before you can go any further
You can lie all you wanna,
But one day you're gonna
Break down, break down and let it all out.
You can't hide from yourself;
Anywhere you go, there you are."
[Teddy Pendergrass]
SINGLE: You've been lying to yourself and especially your husband. Did you expect him to rescue from loneliness? Respect his manhood by being honest. Let him decide if he wants to remain in a loveless marriage. Or are you waiting for him to give you an excuse to end it?