FUCKED UP LIFE! Really? Is this what you want? You couldn't TRULY love her? She doesn't even know you. I get it. You wanted to be married. I guess you didn't see that in me. I wasn't "wifey" material. So now you have your; cute little house, cute little kids and pretty little wife. Its the picture perfect life. RIGHT? Well you have everything you want. Why do you still NEED me?
The movie Brown Sugar best describes us. I fell en love with hip hop. I fell en love with him. At first, we were lovers. We never made any commitments. We ended up being best friends. I knew everything about him. There was never a reason to lie. Every woman he met, I knew about her. He wanted my approval. He had a healthy appetite for the ladies. You might even consider him a HO. I thought his antics were hilarious. I never knew why the women tolerated. He had a certain charisma. I guess you could consider it bait. It NEVER lasted long. Then he met this BROAD. He said she gave him the best head of his life. Who knew that's all it takes? I guess I need to take a class. Now their married and living the American DREAM. I'm not jealous. REALLY I'm not. I'm just confused. I'm the one he confides to. I'm the one whom he shares his dreams. He called me just the other night. He needed someone to talk to. And SHES the wife? I don't want him. I thought I wanted what they HAVE. I just don't know what THAT is anymore? Still Single
"So you see that I don't want him you can have him
ReplyDeleteYou can have him cause I don't want him
Because he's not the man for me."
[I Don't Want Him, You Can Have Him: Nina Simone]
SINGLE: You're a good friend. But you've been experiencing the ups and down of marriage vicariously through this man. Don't be afraid to live your own life. You only get one.