"IM JUST SAYING YOU COULD DO.....

BETTER"!  I knew he was cheating. I honestly didn’t care. I was exhausted with trying. All relationships have challenges. We had invested almost five years. Our families were involved. We had talked about marriage. I told myself “things will get better”. When it didn't, WE didn't know what to do. So we did what no man or woman should ever do, stay in a bad relationship because your scared to leave. I really wanted this to work.  I NEEDED this to work. I just couldn’t walk away. Something had to give. What do you do when the man that you are with is no longer the man that you love?


After the accident, he was different. He wasn't motivated to find work or even take a bath. I was holding down the household and all of the bills. I loved him. I knew he was depressed but he didn't want to admit it. I believed in him. I just couldn’t leave him when he was down.  I was working more hours and spending less time at home. I noticed his distance. I’m sure he could feel mine. I was drained. I had nothing left. I started to hang out more with my girls. He started to hang out more with his friends. EVERYONE could see what was happening. I knew I deserved better. Even his best friend told me that I should move on. Things just kept getting worst. He no longer had a cell phone, so he was using mine. One day I was reviewing my bill and noticed the same number at odd times. Not at all surprised, I just called her. She told me that it started as a friendship but later became sexual.  We talked for hours. I learned that she had been in my car. I learned that she had been in my home. He wasn't JUST f*cking this woman. They had become more. I thought I would be shattered. I thought I would feel betrayed. I thought…….  "this lying M**her F**ker had better get out of my house"!  I took a deep breath and regained my composure. She apologized and actually seemed sincere.  She said that he told her that we had been over.
Actually that was true……….Still Single.